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I Wish

I Wish

I wish I could have told you I was worth it. I wish I could have told you I would try to change the world. I wish there was a ‘me’ moment that you would not regret And knowing I was out there wouldn’t leave you feeling cold. I wish that I had had a...
I Wish

I Wish

I wish I could have told you I was worth it. I wish I could have told you I would try to change the world. I wish there was a ‘me’ moment that you would not regret And knowing I was out there wouldn’t leave you feeling cold. I wish that I had had a...

I Wish

I wish I could have told you I was worth it. I wish I could have told you I would try to change the world. I wish there was a ‘me’ moment that you would not regret And knowing I was out there wouldn’t leave you feeling cold.   I wish that I had had...
This Girl

This Girl

“Who the hell is this girl???” I wondered as I wrapped my arms around this total stranger. “How do I not know you by now?” I was looking for a photography studio, almost five years ago. I saw a property that looked perfect. The listing agent looked nice – dare I say ‘perky’? So I called her and...

Do New

I did something new last night. I sang Christmas songs (seriously) – IN PUBLIC. Two things people who know me would say I would NEVER do: #1 – ‘seriously’ sing, or #2 – sing Christmas songs (seriously or otherwise). I credit my friends. I do things because I demand so much of them. They are SOOOO talented....
There

There

I think I’m there. I got a second cousin hit – A SECOND COUSIN. In the adoptee DNA world a second cousin hit is the mother load. I knew that this person and I shared great grandparents. Her grandmother’s cousin was my mother. But this second cousin match came up as anonymous. In the DNA...
Train Wreck

Train Wreck

So, I’m a wreck. And it’s all your fault. I am sitting in my living room, getting ready for tomorrow, staring at a pile of photographs, and watching bids come in on pieces I’ve painted. I NEVER, EVER, in a million years thought I’d sell a painting – paint them, yeah, give them away as...
Jump

Jump

I burned the pasta today. Dane slid off of the ottoman and bumped his head on the stone hearth while I was trying to change him. I’m not OK. I’m not dead in the water, but I’m not OK. I’m definitely distracted. Full disclosure: Jay – is – stressed. I don’t blame him. He has...
Called

Called

I hated kids – when I was one. I never babysat, because they hated me back. I had no idea that they would save me one day… but they did. I’m struggling with today. I am struggling to admit that I’m human, much less American, Midwestern, Pennsylvanian… It’s never made any difference to me AT...
I Love My Ma!

I Love My Ma!

Be sure that I love my Mama. I am searching for my birth family NOT because I am lacking anything in regards to the family who chose to raise me, but because I choose to seek the total truth. That is who I am. You can agree or disagree, but that is who I am....
Inside Out

Inside Out

I haven’t written in awhile – well true stuff anyway. I actually wrote an entire play in three days about what I think meeting my birth mom will be like but that’s another story… There’s a reason for that. I haven’t been myself lately. At least I don’t think so. I am waiting on confirmation...
Family

Family

“…let your mom and sister know that they are family to us now too. If they want to come “home” with you, I want them to know they are welcome. Them being your family connects them to us as surely as your DNA does. It’s not a game of tug of war to see which...