Parenting
He Brought Me Sticks

He Brought Me Sticks

He brought me sticks. Might sound silly, but it meant the world when my world was crumbling down. I had just moved into town, away from a magestic mountain, acres of land, the beautiful barn, a meandering wooded trail… it only dawned on me around 10:30, the night before class, that I had already scheduled an...
Do Good

Do Good

Last night did not go as expected AT ALL. I wrote ‘ACTION!’ five years ago – and boy were things different five years ago… I had just acted in my first play. Something I never had any ambition to do. My family graciously watched my boys so I could spend endless hours pouring myself into...
Too Good to be True

Too Good to be True

I made a promise. Through bittersweet tears, with no fear in my heart, I made a promise. Three years ago I stood in front of a hundred plus people and I promised them that I would bring them multi-generational theatre YEAR ROUND. Today I walked into an old, empty auto parts store, after four, ONLY...
Mr. Independent

Mr. Independent

My boys are in 4th and 5th grade. They had a dance tonight. I thought nothing much of it except to wonder if they’d let me take pictures (since I had to be there with Dane anyway). I mean, of course I would be there, Dane’s nine, in a wheelchair and his home health aide...
I Wish

I Wish

I wish I could have told you I was worth it. I wish I could have told you I would try to change the world. I wish there was a ‘me’ moment that you would not regret And knowing I was out there wouldn’t leave you feeling cold. I wish that I had had a...
Called

Called

I hated kids – when I was one. I never babysat, because they hated me back. I had no idea that they would save me one day… but they did. I’m struggling with today. I am struggling to admit that I’m human, much less American, Midwestern, Pennsylvanian… It’s never made any difference to me AT...
I Love My Ma!

I Love My Ma!

Be sure that I love my Mama. I am searching for my birth family NOT because I am lacking anything in regards to the family who chose to raise me, but because I choose to seek the total truth. That is who I am. You can agree or disagree, but that is who I am....
Family

Family

“…let your mom and sister know that they are family to us now too. If they want to come “home” with you, I want them to know they are welcome. Them being your family connects them to us as surely as your DNA does. It’s not a game of tug of war to see which...
Anyone Want to Start a School?

Anyone Want to Start a School?

Every year, about this time, I wander around the house, void of common sense, unable to successfully fake socially acceptable behavior or remotely control my emotions in any way. I dread the first day of school for many, many reasons. Let’s be honest. My children are not ‘normal’ by any stretch of the imagination. I...
I'm NOT Going to Hell

I’m NOT Going to Hell

I’m not going to hell. I’m not. I was raised Catholic and taught that if I was cremated I would go to hell. I AM going to be cremated – in fact, I heard you can become an actual ‘firework’ and that sounds pretty damn good to me. That’s how I see my last hoorah....
Dinner Out...

Dinner Out…

My husband and family love food – so do I. Because I weigh nothing and eat like a bird, most people find that comment to be BS, but it’s true. I want to go out to eat. I really do. I want to try new things, taste new flavors, experience other cultures… But I have...
Topless in Lewistown

Topless in Lewistown

I finally got my boobies smashed. My Mom-in-Law had been harping on me to make an appointment for YEARS. Yes, I turned 40 (two years ago!). I kept up with all my ‘me’ stuff while I was pregnant, but after my boys were born, I fell slightly left of the Center of the Universe. Shocking,...